Indulgence

Ok! So I had a little Easter dinner but THAT WAS IT! Made sure that I stayed within the 300-400 calorie range. It was a little tough with all the goodies that church had for the kids and adults. I had to make dinner so FOOD was right in my face the whole time, I knew I should have made my mother in law cook, then I would have easily been able to resist the temptation. For the sake of being festive, I did take part in the consumption of roasted chicken, rice and some veggies. I don't  have the strength to make myself vomit...kudos to those who have it in them. There was a time in my life when I would find my favorite most comfortable toothbrush with the smoothest end and have a go at it, and for the most part, it was ok...I just had to get past that intial feeling of sticking it down my throat. The first few times is the worst, cause if you have not had anything to eat in a while, your stomach tries so hard not to give it up. So frustrating!!! So if I HAVE to have something I'll usually eat something that is easy to bring up like ice cream. I have to try to exercise today no matter what...keep your fingers crossed, hopefully I can include a few crunches. I'm going to try to stay under 150 calories today. OH...I did weigh myself and I lost another 3 pounds, so that makes 11 so far = ). Thanks for all the support guys

Well wish to everyone!

Just wanted to wish everyone a very happy and blessed Easter! = )

Philips

Okay so tonight I have to down a few mouth fulls of Philips Lacative liquid so that I can clean myself out pretty good. Its the only one that doesn't give me that really bad feeling of having to go ALL THE TIME, doesn't give me cramps either. I make sure to drink a glass of water behind it not only cause it tastes gross (no matter what the flavor) but so I won't get dehydrated. My scrub pants are starting to get baggy but I still refuse to weigh myself until next week. I'm excited to see the number that shows up on the scale!

Normal feeling?

I don't know if this is something that is normal, but I love the feeling of being hungry, not really the feeling, but knowing that I have not eatten anything all day, or barely anything at all. Just so long as I can count the calories and its less than 400 I'm happy. I was finally able to go on a run/walk for an hr and it felt so good. The little bit of food that I ate that day didn't even matter, and that makes me feel wonderful. I felt on top of the world when I was running getting rid of all those calories. Is this noraml? I feel like I'm a little kookoo!

Those little wheat crackers....such a big problem

I had 2 boiled egg whites this morning and followed it with my cinnamon and my water. I was doing good up until about "lunch time" when I spotted some wheat crackers that my boss brings in. I think to myself...maybe just a couple, I look at the calorie info and its not really that much...nothing a 1/2 hr of running can't cure. The only thing is that they were so DEEE-LISH. Now I have to try to pretend they are a box of doughnuts so that I don't go NUTS...with my mouth watering with images of me enjoying each crunchy bite. That way if I think of them as something I would never eat I can stay away. The hard thing is knowing that they are very low in calories...but enough of them add up and my thighs won't thank me when I'm done = (. I found myself singing a little tune when I was eating them too...which is NOT a good sign. Keeps your fingers crossed!!!

Ugh!

One of the ladies here up at the desk noticed that I was not eating lunch and said "is this your new plan...that you don't eat lunch?" I was like DARN...now I have to fake like I am eating lunch or something. Its so frustrating, why can't people mind their own business. I don't want anyone monitoring my eating habits, what are they going to do, shove a sandwhich down my throat? Now I'm going to make sure that I let her see me with a little something at lunch so she can leave me alone.

Getting easier

Ok! So all I had for yesterday was a orange fruit cup and lemon tea! I felt pretty good, just a little tired. I was glad that I was not home for most of the morning and afternoon, was at church and had a good excuse not to eat all day plus its the 2nd to last day of Lent. I figured if I don't eat next to anything it'll kick off the week pretty good. I didn't weigh myself because I didn't want to get discouraged, no matter how much I lost of didn't lose. I think that the more flavored water I drink, the more I can trick my body into thinking that I'm actually eating something. Its getting easier to not eat an still be able to function, I used to be a basketcase, thinking about food ALL DAY LONG, but now its just a passing thought, without any retention. I still have to incorporate exercise into this thing, but its a little tough to get motivated lol. I'll get there though...I am starting to really notice my weight loss now, my whole body is starting to morph if you will. The cinnamon works wonders....too with my appetite and sugar intake...I'll keep you guys posted.

a little set back....but back on track

Honestly, this is the only thing that I can truely be good at and have 100% control over at the same time. I had a few days (more like a week....Ooops lol) where I off my strict plan, but I quickly got control back again. I have to try to incorporate some exercise into my daily routine. I have never felt so good about something in my life before. I never knew how many resources there were for people like me. The best part is that I can hide it, all anyone can say is..."you look great....what have you been doing". My husband is going to help me work out too. He does not know what I am doing, nor will he ever, because I'm not going to make it obvious; he doesn't pay attention to what I eat or when I eat anyway. Once I get down to where I want to be I will stop and maintain. I gained so much weight over the past year that all the clothes I have don't fit, but I am on my way to being able to fit into them again, and sooner or later I'll have to buy a whole new wardrobe which excites me even more. I'll wait until I'm at a size where I don't have to keep going back....I don't plan on getting fat again after I lose it all.
I've been restricting and I don't even feel hunger pangs anymore, just pure satisfaction. Just so long nothing is going in, the pounds MUST come off. I have a bit of info for you guys, I have done some research on cinnamon...for you sugar junkies, it helps to reduce blood sugar and cholestrol. It helps to curve those sugar cravings. I have been taking the capsels for about a week and it REALLY works. When I do eat something I usually have a tiny bit of juice or soda to go with it but I have not even been craving that which is AMAZING. Plus the supplement is really cheap too, so give it a shot. I have not been coming on here as much as I should to keep you up to speed but that'll change. Thanks for all your support. = ) 10 lbs down....soooooo many more to go.